mahaba-habang kwentuhan.
Pero commercial muna.
“Hindi lang mga mag-siyota at mag-asawa ang pwedeng magkaron ng break-up..”
dahil matagal akong umabsent sa blogging, i.e. matagal akong umabsent sa pag-gawa ng charts (hehehe, rule is, i blog first and then, charts), eto, ang haba-haba nanaman. naipon, i started this last month p naman eh.
pero bago ang lahat, nais ko lang din manawagan, sa kung sinumang nakakita/pulot/nakaw whatever ng aking mga flash disk, pakisoli na lang po urgently please please please dahil nariyan ang aking buhay at mga kapapelesan. thank you po.
Ako when I finally say no, when I’ve finally made up my mind that it’s over, I mean it: IT’S OVER. Forever. Irrevocable differences. One of the few differences namin ni Kris Aquino (idol ko. Hehehe). I forgive but I never forget. I remember my best friend Aggie and how she said na, sa aming dalawa, sya daw ang nag-k-keep ng grudges, at ako hindi. Well, no more. Grudge galore. Ju-on. Hehehe. Justified naman I guess. Kunsabagay I really give my decisions much thought. Tagal nga eh. Magdadalawang isip muna ako… tatlo… apat. But when it’s over, it’s over. Unlike others, meron akong self-worth.
Pero ya pinag-iisipan ko pa ren ang breaking free from residency…
back to regular programming…
http://leifreak8.multiply.com/journal/item/8/Francis_M._Eheads_and_100_months_with_Chuck
–> this gets to be seen by all no? no? yes? anyway, whatever the case, it’s tooo funny not to be seen by all…
and indeed, this is very funny, my sister’s blog… :-) reminds me of my own when i was still cool. hehehe. which does not mean to say that im no longer cool, but there are so many circumstances disguised by a golf course that keep me from being the coolbeanschick i truly truly am…
she is sooo my sister, kasi, a lot of the things that affect her affect me greatly too. she is my sister after all, same dna, share clothes and shoes, the same room (which i hardly ever sleep in, being not only the couch commando-potato but also dweller now, and miss na miss na miss ko na ang aking kama at ang malupit kong unan). anyway, so I will just parallel hers, lemme start. for one, i too am feeling masipag to blog because of said recent significant, life-altering events.
Chapter 1. Francis M.
Of course si leia ang unang nag-inform sa akin.
“Gosh patay na si francis m. promise ang lungkot”
Nagitla naman ako, siempre. in the midst of the busy-ness that was the ER, siempre mega-announce ako sa mga tao na si francism, the man from manila, the running man, master rapper, ay wala na. as in maka-ilang beses ko nabanggit. sabi nga ni jimbo, “affected ka talaga ah.” (btw, can i just say, now, jimbo i would not have survived eward happily if not with you, so God bless, we have the power, we have the magic! Thank you kuya jimbo.) which is true.
like my sister said, ours is an eat bulaga family, we see francis lang on a daily basis. for at least the one whole year when i took a year off, and eat bulaga was part of my regular daily routine, andun lang sya, nag-aannounce ng mga next numbers, kumakanta sa bulagaan. memorize ko pa rin hanggang ngayon ang “mga kababayan”, “ice ice baby” (ay iba na pala yun), and andrew e rap songs, pero wait wait, my point is, after francis m, to me, rap became something. Sya rin ang dahilan kung bakit marunong ako mag-running man, at mag-rap, for bluddy chrissakes! and i have a vintage tape of YO! hidden somewhere in the house (actually no, it’s not hidden; i know it’s in GIAN’S room). crush ko ata yun nung bata pa ako, pero im not too sure. baka. I think every little girl then did.
bata pa lang ako nakikita ko si francism sa mga family day, family communion. kasi his kids went to the same school as the girls in my family. unna and maxene were friends of my sisters. sabi ko kay celine, bestfriend nya kaya dati si maxene sa grade 1.
anyway, para sa akin, isa sya sa tunay na cool na tao ever to walk the face of the showbiz industry. Hehehe. haay. Rap in peace, barapapaprap!
Mabuhay si Francis! sabi nga ni ely. makabili nga ng three stars and a sun shirt. pag nagkapera na ko ulit.
Ten things I like about the late francis m. (in no particular order)
1. Mga kanta nyang kick-ass
2. Cold summer nights and girl be mine
3. Isa sya sa mga bibihirang tao sa channel 7 na marunong mag-english (aside from the news and public affairs-ish people, and tito vic and joey, and paolo bediones, and dingdong, and heart and rhian).
4. For one thing, hindi nakakahiya at cringe pag nag-iinterview sha ng foreign acts.
5. Good blog, nakakaiyak.
6. Almost ka-birthday ko (October 4 sya)
7. Close sila ni ely e. Yung the sickos project idea, I thought that was golden.
8. Close sila ni jojo a. hehehe! And they taught us how to dance, sila with bitoy, nung “working day and night”.
9. That’s entertainment sya. My misspent childhood.
10. SUPERPROXY!
Chapter 2. Life altering event number 2. The beginning of the end. Eheads concert.
Ako naman ay from duty nun, isa namang relatively mapayapang duty (i’ve had several of the worst talaga! di lang pasyente ang nag-going ballistic) at mapayapa rin ang umaga namin ni jimbo, sabi ko nga para lang kaming pumasok para mag-kwentuhan. As early as onco days, meaning feb, nagpakuha na ako ng tix from my concert homieboy, meaning kuya carlo. Turns out my neighbors, the smugmarrieds (hehehe) hindi na pupunta. baka busy. Ako rin nga, dapat ay hindi na rin pupunta, kasi:
1) pagod nga ako,
2) tas ayan nanaman ang looming insurmountable (remember my word of the day joma! wala pa rin nagbago) charts - siempre dapat napansin nyo na nagb-blog lang ako pag parating na ang charts day 
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3) tapos ang dami-dami-dami ko pang kelangang gawin para sa sarili ko, gaya ng pagpapamasahe at facial at paayos ng buhok,
4) MOA pa kaya yun, ang layo layo…
5) nakita ko naman na sila many many times before, and i have all their songs and albums,
6) ang paper ko, kelangan nang gawin, leche, nang-makapagsweldo na’ng muli! (i’ve been working pro-bono, but not really voluntarily, since feb), etc etc
kaso, naisip ko rin:
1) eraserheads kaya yun, at mahal ko sila talaga,
2) sayang ang tiket, malamang di mag-s-scalp si carlo unlike yung ginawa ni gian nung last reunion concert - still i pity the schmuck who bought it,
3) i’ve been talking about it and waited for so long tapos mag-q-quit lang ako,
4) eraserheads kaya yun, at mahal ko sila talaga,
5) i need to unwind, and how much cooler than the eraserheads, di ba, tang ina!, sabi nga.
6) eraserheads kaya yun, at mahal ko sila talaga.
So i went home quite early, thank u lord for ER rotation and early relief… ang plano ni carlo to make kita-kita round 4 tas sabay2 na pumunta dun… kaso siempre i had to sleep a little, watch Startalk (siempre ibabad ang sarili sa luha at kiko tributes). nung matauhan na ako, waking from the usual dreamless nap (knowing that i had to take the tube, as there was no way i was driving!!!), i left the house at 4:30ish. not meeting up with sila KC ha, kasi 4 pm pa yun… yoko naman na, late na ko eh (awwww… nakanaman)
so after years of not taking the mrt, again i did, and since mahaba-habang trip yun, na-reminisce ko yung taong i took a year off at nag”moonlight” at kung anu-anong kabalbalan nangyari sa buhay ko. real world, real life ba. kasi sa ospital, kahit anu pang sabihin nila, ilang facets lang nga ng life makikita mo. ilang uri lang ng tao. we’re quite cloistered talaga.
I remembered how i used to take the train on a daily basis, that one year, 2x daily, and how i frequented the malls just because sila ang karugtong ng train, how i went on gimiks like a normal tweenager, how i applied myself to driving (was quite good initially) and applied sa aking mga credit card applications, and how i read so many books that year, and how i cooked, and many, many other things. how i’ve reintegrated myself sa family and friends (at least those who were not too busy for me). Met up with long-time-no-see quality friends. I had a good year. although admittedly there were some things that happened that year that are quite harrowing as well, at least in the grand scheme of things i was happier and rested. During that trip from north avenue to taft, i played escapist kumbaga, forget about my wretched life now. i speak of residency as if it were the ultimate evil. it’s one thing to be tired physically, but once you feel your spirit is tired na rin…
but I digress. anyway back to the eheads concert. like my sister said, sulit na sulit!!! sulit na sulit na sulit talaga!!!! And like she said, mas masaya talaga yun kung nasa harap kami at nakikita namin actually yung stage. We can actually see the stage, but i’m only five feet one inch and three fourths, and ang dami palang matatangkad na tao sa pilipinas na fans ng eheads, nakataas pa ang mga braso at cellphone kakapicture. thank god for vidiwalls all around us. and yes, i also felt bad na kung sino pang hindi nagbabayad sa vip and sivp este svip sila pa yung malapit. nyarks. Hello dapat nga libre na yung mga nanood nung first eh! — yes i hear you my sis. (happened pa on my particularly harrowing month – august — na i sacrificed one whole night for them para lang atakihin sa puso yung isa jan, minura ko talaga sya ng husto. teka, let go let go!).
SO the eheads, as we all know, opened with magasin. siempre brought back all my memories as a teenager. high school pa ba tayo nun! saya-saya. ang eheads talaga anthemic, talagang lahat ng songs nila, associated with certain fond memories. haaaay… anyway ayoko na mag-review ng concert, tutal ang dami-dami na’ng nagpost about it, the song list and marcus’ cuteycutecute pink hello kitty guitar… kaya, magku-kwento na lang ako about myself. this is my blog anyway so swallow my drivel. yum yum.
like leia said, it was also so “awwww…” , yung docu avp before the show started, super makes me wanna go back to UP where the glory days began, not only of eheads but my barkada as well… i also loved marcus’ hwag mo nang itanong, di ko sasabihin sa yo… that is one cool barrapapap boy, funny! and the hello kitty guitar siempre. ive always thought he was the coolly sabog one, and high five and hep hep hurray for the cool sabog ones!:-) too bad I was with shiny happy non-sabog people (but my favorite cool geeks nonetheless :-)) kaya di makapagwala ng tama.
my sister spoke of SUPERPROXY, which i always loved, anyway, and yey, again props to francis m.
after the first bitin concert, sabi namin ng kapatid ko, di man lang nakanta ang ANG HULING EL BIMBO which clearly should be the last song. anyway, so there we had it, and i was quite melancholy, also, at that point, kaya lang shiny happy people nga ang kasama ko so was in no way and condition to make emote emote. KC asked me many times kung okay lang ako. hehehe. (thought balloon: ok na ok, kaya lang gusto ko mag-awww, how sad, it’s the end na…)
and i remembered all the other memories that the eheads and their songs brought to our lives, yung mga SONGS talaga pare, like i said, anthemic, and then yung mga UP FAIRS na we’d stay up all night till the morning actually, nagvideoke kami, kain shawarma, nagbibibibili ng samut-saring kung anu-ano, at nagpakalasing si karen hehehe, at wala pa kaming mga kotse nun at ang babata pa lang namin, and simply stay there until it was time for the eheads… just to see/hear them, breathe the same alma mater air as them. and we will leave happily after ng set nila, commuting and putting our promising youthful and foolish lives in danger. haaay. Ngunit ngayon kay bilis maglaho ng kahapon…
It was a day for reminiscing.
so there, tapos na. “ETO NA ANG HULING EL BIMBO, SING!” Sabi nga ni elyboi. Then it was the end. pero siempre, nung 4 meters na lang kami from the exit, biglang nagtawag nang encore yung mga mokong. hahaha. sinugod namin ni madel at giniba (naww, not us exactly, may gumiba na before us, but we followed them) yung harang between gold and silver, and got our best view of te concert at that time na. Napilitan ang boys na sumunod.
anyway, tawang-tawa ako sa sinulat ni leia (my sister) about this. ehehehe. though like she said, siguro na-miss lang talaga nila at mamimiss kasi nila kasi ito na talaga yung last AND NO MORE. sad. sad. sad. and yes, ely buendia, i have loved you since forever, 12 years na ata. hot nga sya nun! alavya! apir! pero tang*** kapa rin cardiac patient! hehehe. I love him. At bumalik ulit yung pangarap ko when i was younger to fall in love and end up with a rockstar na sensitive at musical genius. hihihi. Lagi ko tong sinasabi high school pa lang ako diba! sinabi ko rin yun about rico blanco pero med school na ako nun. but ohwell you can give me points for being consistent. hehehe.
stupid nga si tim yap, hahaha, epic fail as always (pero like ko sya, comedy kasi sya, penpenpen mukha mo wahahaha poser). pero i have a soft spot for epic fails dont i. so again. apir!
Sabi ni ely, when they were just about done,”we are the eraserheads”. Sabi ni carlo, “hindi nya sinabing ‘we were the eraserheads’ so baka that was not the end”. Malay mo nga naman. After 40 years, ovation productions present, the eraserheads at the araneta coliseum… Ehehehe.
epilogue. Few days back, duty ulit ako sa eward. bana-banayad naman ang gabi. at meron kaming tv, and the concert was shown on gma 7!!! hihihihi. in the order we were seated, sa 1400 daw ako, si sir pau (na eheads disser!) sa 1000, si joef at mam anna sa 500, at si sir melchor “sa bleachers” daw. hahaha! kakatawa (haven’t heard of that term bleachers since high school and my basketball-manic fangirl days)… and i regaled pips with concert stories, what happened while it was happening, habang nanunuod kami sa er, saya-saya, sabi ni sir pau parang andun na rin sya nun through my kwentoes, all the while dissing randomly what is clearly one of my favorite bands of all time. Leche ka. Hehehe.
yun lang.
Ten random things na naaalala ko pag nakakarinig ng eheads songs
1. High school, basically. Almost every single song transports me to high school. 2. I love you ely! 3. Yung music vid nung 3rd year high school kami starring jennie and jomer and jopa. Torpedo. Funny!
4. yung langkwentang teleplay namin, did we not use overdrive or alapaap or waiting for the bus as the song for the montage??? Not sure.
5. yung bumuo kami ng banda ba naman! I lavya guys! Reunion! Hehe. He. My playing the guitar, dabbling-dabbling in all but the drums… at yung pagpunta namin sa studio sa anonas just to practice, wasting our hard earned stipends. :-) and i think we played/practiced shake yer head once nung kasama pa natin si val. Kakatawa, alala nyo ba yun, on one hand, violet by hole then masaya-na-pacute na, eheads at color it red na… lexi hya sarah val me limjap-at-bri (na minsan ay nag-sessionist), we are antipara.
6. sir tips
7. yung nagpunta kami sa san Pablo at naiwan ko sa bahay ni bucao ang tape ko ng cutterpillow. Hoy san na yun! Hehehe.
8. ang aming pag punta-punta sa mga UP fair as was said na.
9. yung time na umuwi kami sa province at duon nakabili ng pillbox mag, and then yung fruitcake, and reading yung Christmas book nila and the friend I borrowed that from, etc etc. 10. and then I remember UP. UP fight!
Chapter 3. Sawa na ako sa mga hassle sa buhay ko… ayaw ko na’ng mag-isip para sa sarili… tinatamad na akog byumahe, ang gusto ko’y nakahiga na lang…
after so many problems and issues and a lot of distress and pain, the past several months have seen me in a better state. siguro right now i am no longer trying that hard. acceptance is something that comes naturally to me, already. cheers to that.
pa-habol na ako sa charts, 8 na lang ngayon, with 4 to be reconstructed. yey. pati ang utang ko sa DVD watching, hihihi, nahahabol ko na. napanuod ko na ang twilight hhahaha maganda naman (and as far as vampire love goes, BUFFY still rocks!!! SMG idol for life!) cleaning up my act. actually malinaw na sa akin where i slipped, last year yun, and it was wrong to have dug myself into that hole. nirerehab ko na sarili ko. sana. wehehehe vague…
pero eto na, i am releasing myself from the bondages of what makes me unhappy. im letting go of things which do nothing but weigh me down lang. Accept things which you cannot change, sabi nga nung adage.
i had dinner with 4 of my true friends quite recently, and nasabi ko lang sa kanila, at one point, quite frivolously, that i am so proud to have had what ive had with them these past 12+ years already, as my loves. best friends talaga. there will people whom you will always, always always like, no matter what happens. at para sa akin sila yun. God may not have blessed with me with a lot of what i ask for, pero he has given me true friends, and i have learned to discern that that quality of trust, genuine concern, and friendship in its very essence is not only hard to find, but hard to equal. i’ve been told by people how seriously i view friendship, like it’s a pact, a relationship you get into, short na lang of being romantically involved. and now i have learned to accept not to expect it every time i enter into one. maaaring may ka-barkada, may ka-close, ganun, pero yung talagang friend, hard to come by. i dont even have to see that person all the time to know na quality friend sya (like my bear friends, for example). siguro minsan yung time na ininvest mo sa friendship would also be factored in, but no matter. meron naman akong mga sandali ko pa lang nakikilala alam ko na agad na dekalidad. so now, i strive for quality, no longer quantity. you don’t always get what you give. ayun. so now i’ll be more careful regarding who i start caring for. neway i miss you guys, my real true friends, sana magkita-kita na ulit tayo soon. to my best friend au, some people are not worthy of your unhappiness, wag mo na lang pag-aksayahan ng panahon. and we love you, tell me what i can do to help. you’ll always have me. us. mwah.
Chapter 4. Leonardo and Kate.
These two, I have loved for a long time. Si kate winslet ka-birthday ko kasi yan, kaya fangirl na nya ko, dun pa lang sa fact na yun. And who hasn’t fallen in love with these two sa titanic? I love love love them!!! I watched said movie 3 million and 500 thousand times, on cable, on VCD, on DVD, 2 or 3 times sa moviehouse pa. Bata pa ako nun. Though I start mini-zoning out after the iceberg alert, kasi after that it starts to hurt too much. Who hasn’t cried over this? Who? (well you are a malditang heartless!) hehehehe. I cried dun sa grandparents nag-hug na lang while waiting for thw water to put them to, er, sleep, sa mga kids that were put to bed with a story, sa mga instrumentalists who played their sad swan song. And siempre when leo died. Huhuhuhu. I totally love em. I played dress-up as rose de witt bukater not just once but twice, for 2 special occasions… muntik na ngang three [last December kasi, ang theme sana namin sa Christmas party, Hollywood movie icons, and I was all set to go again as rose dewitt bukater (ediba kulot nga ako ulit ngayon, so sakto sana!)… until I heard na si nav had plans of going as jack, kadireeeh, so naisip ko, lara croft na lang kaya (oo carry ko yun, shut up!) or princess leia, yung balot-na-balot version ha, in white at may baril2 pang nalalaman… anyway, ang ending, marami kasing hindi game sa naturang theme, so naging white Christmas na lang and we came all dressed up in sweaters and bonnets and mufflers and gloves… siempre si nav may dala pang skis. Talagang performance level sya ha.] I digress again.
So SIEMPRE naman, when I saw the golden globes speech of kate for winning best actress in revolutionary road, naiyak ako talaga… minahal nya si leo for 13 years, I was like, so, awwwww…. Grabeh! Kilig! Pinoy love team! Fan! … Sana sila na lang. Hehehe. Sana sila na lang sa totoong buhay. wehehehe poor sam mendes. Hihihihi. Bahala sya. And naturally, I watched said movie. And in the tradition of me being the typical pinoy moviegoer, syyeeettt, walang kwentang pelikula, hindi happy ending, may namatay nanaman! Anubayan!!! Leo and kate!!! Hindi na ba kayo pwedeng maging happy??? Ha? Are you doomed to never end up together? Hahahahaha. Anyway, I still love them with all my heart.
So in order to cheer myself up, I googled and ogled at the pretty pics of another couple I totally adore: sarah and freddie. OF COURSE. I heart them.
happy holy week, y’all.
Love love, your princess pretty, the real sweetheart.
