What The World Needs Now Is Lau Sweet Lau

I honestly, honestly did not expect this! Promise! (movie star tears)

Hindi sa false modesty o pagmamayabang, pero it was an honor just to be nominated… into taking this.

Ok ok. Seriously this time.

My closest friends knew how positively freaked out i was (check previous blog), that i was certainly conditioning myself to be strong in case of a failure. I wouldn’t be freaked out too much had I known I did really well. I mean, granted, I found Biochem, Physio, Legal Med, Commed, and Micro really easy, hehehe, but Surgery, Patho and Pharma were aneurysmal (and the rest, difficult talaga). Surgery, especially, gave me reason enough to think I was going to fail. I sighed as I turned in my paper, and cried as I read up for the next exam (sabi ko sa sarili ko, "this is it, Lau, this is the one that will kill you". I texted my brother Gian and my parents, na ayoko na, sobrang hirap ng surge, bagsak na ako, pwede na ba akong umuwi? Obviously they didn’t allow it, coz I would be here right now if they gave in to my drama queen self. BUt honestly, at that time, I didn’t feel like i was over reacting, i knew i blew it).

I felt so much like the Reality TV contestants… that I’ve come this far, yet, no dice, I’d have to go. I was envisioning Tyra giving me the boot, or Ryan, or Heidi, or Jay Mohr, or to put it in really old terms, Edu Manzano calling me the weakest link… goodbye. I was having nightmares, i mean mukha pa ngang semi-lucid iyon (beta waves) eh… I stopped eating (pero kakain na ako!), and slept for hours, hours, hours on end, until I was too tired of it (me, tired of sleeping? whoa!).

People who have been witness to my intensely doubting, paranoid phase have urged me to have more faith. Hello. I do have faith, I do! Truly, I never ever lost faith in Him, and should I have wavered, I always grabbed my Bible and looked for a reassuring verse (I have since collected lots, actually, which can tide me over until I face another struggle). Daming messages ni God dun for us. It’s true. I know. We should not be afraid. But we’re only human naman diba. I only keep believing that He won’t give me something I can’t bear (and I was more like, but God I know you know I couldn’t bear to fail! I’m not strong enough! I’ll get crushed!)

Anyhow, it wasn’t my faith in the Lord that had problems, but mostly it was waning faith in myself and my abilities… you know what I mean? Kasi si God, God never fails… but sometimes His plans for your life are not the same as what you’d expect, and sometimes are totally different from your own plans for yourself. I was steeling my self for this fact. That God could possibly have a plan for me which included failing the boards the first time, and if this were true, I was going to have to accept it. I was going to have to be strong enough to take it, without doubting Him. Parang si Job. So there, it was still an honest, real possibility, it was still there, looming around, hanging in the air, making up its mind. Well. I guess sometimes it just helps also not to be too overconfident din, not even with a mega-powerful backer up there (a friend has told me, "ang isang ama, hindi lahat ng anak pinagbibigyan kaagad-agad…" which made a lot of sense to me, coz here on earth as I have 4 siblings I have to make concessions to sometimes…), so that you’ll be in for a big, big, big and mega-happy surprise. God will surprise you when you least expect it. So here, I’m really glowing and happy. Thank you Lord, thank you for your surprise, i really like it

Yesterday up until last night, the rumor mill has buzzed that the board exam results would be out already… as I had no internet access, I instructed my most trusted friends to inform me of whatever result there would be, that good or bad, I’ll "take it like a man" (ilang beses ko bang sinabi to in the past few days?)… as part of my conditioning to accept His will, in case His will included a second trip to MLQU for the boards. Anyhow, by 10 PM I realized I was tired, and I was going to sleep. Imagine the heartache I received when I woke up without a single congratulatory text! Right. I said. This was it. People were happy all over the place, and they weren’t telling me anything as they were afraid to hurt my feelings. Right. And I cried. And slept again. Then I woke up. Then slept again. It came to a point where I told myself, Lau, you can’t sleep forever, you should at least wake up and make yourself beautiful kahet bagsak ka. So I hauled my pitiful ass up from the bed then I cried again. And wore black. And then my dad called from AMA, telling me that the results would come out later this evening pa, so I felt relieved and kinda stupid actually, until I noticed the return of the wrenching, unbearable pain of uncertainty, churning at my stomach, a huge visceral weight steady over my solar plexus, the whole hyperventilating, tachycardic, fluctuating-brain-waves experience. It was so bad. The suspense. I’ll never want to go through that again!

So I went about my usual business, got enshrouded in denial (who is a very good best friend to have in uncertain times), helped in the kitchen. Parked my freaking paranoid human body in front of the couch to watch the telly. As usual. Which comforted me, actually. Love my TV. Bayani Agbayani won the million peso jackpot sa Game KNB, after 5 days of trying (this may seem like mondo tangential, but hear me out, I do have a point). Then I received a message from God. This is so funny ha, but I feel that it was a direct message for me, kumbaga, bang! tinamaan ako! direct hit! sapul! (as God knew this was something I watched everyday, seriously, religiously, every single bloody day, probably naisip nya ito yung best medium to reach this couch potato daughter of His). Kris Aquino told Yani, who is currently without projects at ABSCBN, on his eventual win, "God is very very good, you just have to trust in Him as He knows the perfect timing, and He always has our best interests at heart." Naiyak ako dun promise. God speaking to me through Kris Aquino on the TV. Seryoso. It was funny, touching, and kinda sad. Huhuhu.

So more steeling ensued. To take my mind off the churning ordeal, I watched Harry Potter 5, finally, then High School musical (oh and Lakehouse pala the other day, I love Quiapo DVDs thanks kay Kuya Mandy whose stall is right next to MLQU). And then at around 8 PM, it came…

The first Congrats text (from my good friend and groupmate for many years, Leya Evangelista, MD). Then the next (Ryan Tan, my former JI). Then the next (Phoebe Cabaluna, my bestfriend hon). Then the next (my pare Ryan Mercadal). SO on and so forth. The rest, as they say, is history, and can be downloaded at inq7.net or the prc website…

So thank you thank you thank you Lord, for absolutely everything you’ve done for me, for never letting me down. It came as a sweet sweet surprise. I love you dear God. Thank you thank you thank you.

Thank you to my lucky charms: my lucky shirt, from Oblique (fabrique au canada) which I wore during the Pisay entrance exam (passed), UPCAT (made it to Diliman Bio didn’t i?), NMAT (got a 99) and for the 4 days of boards (pasado!)!!! (hoy Vice nilabahan talaga yun ng Mama ko! hehehe) Gumagana ka pa naman eh, di mo pa ako binibigo, thank you. Hehe. I almost thought I would burn you down na. Ahehehe. Off to the baul you go again, pahinga ka. Thank you Red Ribbon bakeshop lucky empanadas! Hehehe. To Magnolia Chocolait (also my usual food for examinations like this, lucky ka ren ata), R&C cookies, Oishi Chocoflakes for nourishing me during the 4 days of madness. To my lucky homeviewer text mate. To Sta Clara, Sta Rita, St Francis, St Jude, Poong Nazareno, Mama Mary and all the sanits who interceded, or appeared once or twice in my cellphone as a chain text, thanks.

And to the same people I thanked in the previous blog, most especially to my managers (my parents and Manang Zen), my sibs, my family, mga kasama sa industriya, mga friends, acquaintances, fans, inspirations. Sa lahat ng bumubuo ng PRC. To MCG Derm Clinic my sort of derma dahil ang ganda talaga ng skin ko ngayon. To all those who have always believed in me (and I never understood why!) and never lost faith in me (even when I was losing faith in myself!). To all who prayed for me, thank you. And to all who congratulated me, thank you din (btw sira ang cell phone ko eh and wala na rin namang load anyway due to the horrid chain texts kaya hindi ako maka-reply to any of you). To all those I love and love me. To my years in PSHS and UPDILBIO for training me and teaching me how to cram my butt off!

And to the Lavinias, Dao Ming Fongs, Claras, Claudia Buenavistas, Skeletors, Master Shredders, Max Alvarados, Paquito Diazes, Cherie Gils, Gladys Reyeses, etc etc of my life, sa mga kontrabida, now I thank you for giving me a hard time, for pushing me to my limits, for breaking my heart and spirit, for calling me names when I don’t think i deserved it, for prematurely judging me and my friends without basis, for giving me and my friends very very hard and trying times, for making me hate my 2005 birthday, for being just so unreasonable, for snubbing me, for walking all over me, for not giving me a chance, for letting go too quickly, for forgetting all about me, for never texting back, for stabbing me in the back, for taking what is mine, for taking what i really wanted and deserved, for ganging up on me, for bullying me, for giving me false hopes, for hurting my feelings, for making promises you did not plan to keep, for always putting me on the spot (walanghya ka), for making me cry, for pushing me aside, for rolling your eyes, for making irap, for not making me pansin, for leaving me behind, for dragging me to within an inch of sanity, morality and survival, for making my life hell with you, for not loving me back… Nuuuy. Kilala ninyong lahat kung sino kayo. I thank you for making a great part of me stronger and for allowing me to realize that I can survive anything, for being part of my inspiration to do better, for making me strive just to prove you wrong, and I thank you because now i can say: ha. ha. ha. ha. ha. ha. Sabi nga nila, hindi nagiging bida ang bida kung walang kontrabida. Kaya salamat. God bless you.

And again, thank you thank you thank you, Lord. You are the most Holy, the most powerful, the most loving and kind. With you everything is possible, and nothing is impossible. Thank you so much, the best ka talaga.

Ayan Lord lovelife na lang. Hehehe. Joke lang po.

Congrats sa lahat ng pumasa, we deserve this, atin ito! J UPDILBIO family congrats J J

Peace be with you all. Mwah ever.

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To my very good friends who did not make it (although I’m not sure you will ever get to read this), I know we’ve talked about this, about saying okay lang yan when it fact it never would be, I will just reiterate a few things (from previous blog and this one):

"God is very very good, you just have to trust in Him as He knows the perfect timing, and He always has our best interests at heart."

He has plans, plans for you and me, plans we’d never understand right now, but it will all fall into place eventually… I’m sure you have worked as hard as me, I’m sure you have the same trust and faith in Him as me, I’m sure He loves you as much as He loves me, but He has a different plan for you, that is best for you. He answers our prayers in many different ways. I know it sounds crazy, but this, how He answered each of us, I mean, is His will. And we all have to accept it graciously. You may feel defeated now but God will give you a chance to rise up from this, as stronger, better, more beautiful, more complete persons. Smile, chin up, and let go. Remember that He loves you, a lot of people love you, and that I love you (if it’s any consolation, since wala naman akong gagawin for the next many many months, as — oh gosh this is gonna be trite — as I search for myself and my meaning in life… I can study with you. Still! I know could use the re-refresher. :-)) Thank you for everything, the Lord is just and kind will give you the glory you deserve. Go Feb!

Amen! Amen! Amen!

TRANS BA ‘TO? Haler? The Return of the Greetings Queen

I am posting this right now since kung may mangyaring hindi kanais-nais later, and i might get so distressed and depressed, baka hindi na ako makapagpasalamat ng mahusay… believe me i have already had visions of my molecules splattered on sharp concrete courtesy of a huge G-Liner bus, as well as of my lucid self gradually peeling away from my body, watching it sleep so fitfully, guiltily, mercilessly, for 18 hours or more, until whatever is left sane of me snatched the sleeping lauren by the collar, and begged her to get off her sorry pitiful ass, and continue to live. I haven’t died. Gosh. Gising na ako. No more nightmares for now. Ready for some punishment.

Mass text

"CONSUMMATUM EST!" John 19:30
"Father in Your hands I place my Spirit…" Luke 23:46

Sa lahat salamat sa mga text at panalangin. Di ko alam kung mabuti ang kinalabasan, ayoko na ngang isipin… baka nga mainvalidate pa ako kasi once sinipon ako and when I sneezed may droplet tumama sa papel, bawal yun! Hehe! anuba! nakakapraning! Ngunit anuman ang kinahinatnan nun, salamat po talaga ng marami. If I don’t make it, lalaban pa ren… :)  Ipinasa-Diyos ko na ang lahat and I put all my trust in His plan for me. Amen! God bless us all! Peace! -LAU

Thank you speech

Thank you thank you thank you to the following people and entities for all the prayers and support, I hope you will still love me kahet I don’t make it :
My family who means the world to me, especially Mama, Papa, Manang Zen (ang mga manager ko), Gian, Lei, Celine, Diego… all my titos and titas Tita Mel, Tita Syl, Tito Ric, Uncle Dek, Tita Nanie, UNcle Adlai, Tita Beth, Tita Cynthia and Tito Andy, Tita Marilyn and Tito Ed, Uncle Del and Tita Lettie, Tito Gards and Tita Bibing, Tito Mar and Tita CHit, Tito SOn and Tita Tess, and my cousins especially Heather, Mariel, Mi, Gustaf and Gibran, Paeng Gabo Enzo, Roel, and Manang Rochelle and Manong Jeff and Cam, Jeff and Lillian, Meryl and Edward.. all my mama’s relatives whom she recruited for prayers (sana gumana), the people in St Claire and Fernwood who prayed for me…

My friends especially Flummoxed and The Beautiful Onesz: Chatchie Marie, Lexi ANn, Phoebe Grace my hon, AGgiewaggiepie, Auieau, Karenini, St Pauline, Dawnie Lynn, Kuya Carlo, Leobaleo, Dibby, Lee Cute. Thank you for loving me unconditionally for so many years na. My Bear friends Eunice, Hya, Clair, Jenn. Mga kaberks. MOst ABMers, Bio people, Pisay friends, UE friends, groupmates and acquaintances.

My fans and stalkers.

The ones who keep me company while I’m studying: Kris Aquino, the Eat Bulaga cast, the Food Network people, Iron Chef team, Banzai guys, That 70s Show cast, the wonder toons of Matt Groening, the geniuses behind the channels Lifestyle Network, Jack TV and ETC, etc etc (tv freak)… thanks for keeping me sane and happy but you just might have brought about my doom. ;p

And for the texts, PMs, and prayers, thank you very much to (in no particular order): Dr. Leonor Rosero, Dentist, Chair PRC; Everyone at QUEST especially Dra Lansang and co-questors; Dra Pilones who made Biochem easy as pie; Francisco T. Duque III, MD, Secretary of Health; Lorna O Fajardo, MSC Philhealth Acting President and CEO; Sharon CUneta-Pangilinan, Ate SHawie, The Megastar; Tony Carlos MD (who wished me goodluck many months back before he left for Australia :)); the late Sir Jerome Nepomuceno, MD (whose friendster messages and goodluck tips for SI-ship and boards i still keep, may God bless the soul of one of the nicest and most favorite SIs we’ve ever had nung mga bata pa kami); Kuya Jay our East Ave SI; the people from Pisay and UPDILBIO, MOst ABMers, Ma’am Lizet; Sir Jero; Joy Bellen; Charo; Dawnie; Aggiepie; Gengendy; Is-is; Nesser; Raissa; Jojo Caduhada my ex-boyfriend :); Ping Gwaping; Mates; BJ; Gab; Mareng RR; Bobing; Lesley Cruz; Ecagurl Andal; Wena; Shali; Kuya Carlo Tubadeza; Kat Trebol; Hazel; Pat Franco; Dr. Mike Ching; She; Leya; Irene; Ate Ria; Mike Verzosa; Bry; Helen; Oli; Chicanee; Al Decampong; Jimmy Dumlao; Marktheman; Maan Zepeda; Mark DG tangkad and Toni; Rod Castro; Nicole P; Pitet; Ma’am Rhea Q (and the other half of our most loved SI tandem Ma’am Kyoshee); Trisha Mendoza; Kris Nantes; Manjo; Jomer the Gagamba-goer ; Marc Hubad Abad ; Rey The Gay Lu (happy birthday); Jonas; Karen Salvador; Ann Mae Sto. Domingo ;Krizella; Auieau; Yin; Mi; Ryan Mercadal; Julie Luna; Jill Tabora; Van Velasco; Pau; The Chatch; Zette; Jimfu; Tin Bajandi; Traqui; Valewwy; Ryan Tan; Wyne the neighbor; Dra Claire Layusa; Eunice; Trina; Badongski; Jengjejengjeng Dazo; Cindy Tanseco boss-chief (sorry mastah if I fail you); all of Gian’s friends who prayed for me; Kriska; Vicee; JPJPTan; Lexi; Joebri; Jen Patag; Joely my favorite direk and perfect man:-); Sabs; Ian Fernando; Jackie Bulatao; Euge; my bookies Thy Agnes and Wendy; the person who still regularly appears in my dreams [sana bati na tayo talaga] :-); Joyce C; Joyz; Joyjoy Uy; Buloy; Foofy; Dennis Fernandez; Aiee Fullante; unknown well-wisher na SUN ang sim with the last 4 digits as follows: 7-3-0-1 (hu u po? Wla po kasi lumalabas na name sa phone book, sorry po talaga… and thank you very much for wishing me well), isang "0906…990" wala ka ren sa phone book ko eh… Sir Leonard, Edwin B, JR Tamayo, Veej, Betsy…

and sa iba pang mga nag-text/email/Friendster message na baka nadelete ko, kung meron man, and mga nagtext sa mga dead SMART and SUN numbers ko, kung meron man, and to everyone who prayed for me but knew of no way to contact me, kung meron man, thank you…

and to you who never arrived, in my arms, Beloved, who were lost from the start… (ni zai na li?)…

kay Sr. Nazareno, St. Clare, St. Jude, St Francis, St Rita, St Mary and all the angels and saints we have called upon for intercession…

and kay GOD our Lord, Savior, Friend. THANK YOU.

Thank you very much po. Pagpalain kayo. Peace.   

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We’ve been moving mountains long before we knew we could.
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BY THE TIME MOST OF YOU GUYS WILL GET TO READ THIS, THE RESULTS HAVE BEEN OUT. NEEDLESS TO SAY, CONGRATULATIONS OR SYMPATHIES, AS THE CASE MAY BE, ARE MOST WELCOME. In case of notsogoodnews, don’t be shy, ha, okay lang na i-text pa ren ako, okay lang na-i-invite pa ren ako sa mga celebratory gimiks as Boracay, baguio, Hingkong at Puerto Galera (kung magkapera) and lakads, okay lang talaga, i’ll take it like a man (err…)! just dont please disown me please. sabi nga ni badongerzy, this is only a one time test, and not making it this august does not mean you won’t be a good doctor. i know of 2nd takers who are just some of the best doctors i know. oh da vah. what matters is that a gave it a shot (it’s not my best shot, i know, else why would i freak out so bad huh, but at least it was some sort of shot, nonetheless :-p), and now i know a lot of people care for me talaga and prayed for me. ‘Steeg.

Jeopardy and Closing Remarks

SO… now we wait with bated breath to the beat of the Jeopardy theme… tumtumtum tumtumtumtum, tumtumtumtumtum tudumtudumtudumtumtumtumtumtumtum tum tudum tum tum tum tum… good night and aylavyah!

08/01/2006 2:00PM

Can you handle Distraction?

DO you know this TV show DISTRACTION (on JACK TV, Saturdays, prior to Banzai). You do? Great! That, however, has nothing to do with this whole blog. Haha. Iron CHef America is on at about the same time on the Lifestyle network, which means I hardly even watch Distraction (pLus I can’t quite grasp the accent. Haller, talk about distracting). Anyway that’s just my intro to today’s 10 things… 10 absolute distractions during board review:

1. TV. Check previous blog. ‘Nuff said. (btw can i just say I’m so happy about Kahlen and Naima making the top sa ANTL…buti nga kay Keenyah, ang feeling kasi mashado… infernes, all three of them were really pretty dun sa commersh and all the challenges sa finale… but i bet yung manok ko si Brittany would have also been gorgeous had she made it. La lang!:)… Ooh, ooh, and crush ko na rin si Kyan, hehehe!… and yup yup I’m right my honey Ashton Kutcher was the brains behind Beauty and The Geek… Sam Oh said so.:-) )

2. The PC. INcluding surfing the net, organizing and reorganizing the folders that i rebuilt after reformatting the virus-defeated ol’ thing, etc… (btw mental note to self: follow up Vice and Gen for the pics i need to get to rebuild the My Pictures folder. Oh, and hi guys!)

3. Sleeping. Nothing in the world — at least in my world — is sweeter. I sleep too much! Can you blame someone who’s been sleep-deprived every-three days (or two, or four, or for days on end kung nagme-makeup at nagpeperpetual) for 2 years? Thought so. Anyway i’ve noticed, sleeping has done wonders for my skin, for my psyche too coz i’m a lot happier now (unless it’s the being away from the hospital and from many other malevolent forces i’d rather not talk about that’s making me happier now)… but not for my figure, hehehe. As in, i can totally trace my weight gain to sleeping, kasi i don’t eat more than my usual naman, even if i do cook now, and i still have the same amount of "exercise"… pero nagvavitamins na ako ngayon, so. That may also have something to do with it.

4. My siblings, whom I love very much. That i willingly get distracted.

5. The rare instances the writing bug bites, that i just have to pounce on it! In my case, writer’s block has already been the default state. And when I write, "now that’s refreshing!" (thank you Heart and Palmolive)

6. Books, NON-ACADEMIC of course, which i keep scrounging for on-line, in book sales, mga ganun. And that I read immediately if i can’t help it (like, I just finished "Confessions of a Sociopathic Psychopath" and "Player Piano"! Kainis!). My golly, i think i must even be applauded, coz I have like 20+ books waiting for me to read them (mind you, these are titles that i have always wanted to have, that I’ve always wanted to read, and now that i’ve finally acquired them in a cheaper, previously owned or otherwise, or discounted state, i couldn’t!), and i’m fighting the temptation, but i figured, "you also have a lot of sample exams and hand-outs waiting for you to read them, Lau"

(As an adjunct to that pala, and my shopaholic gastadora impulsive nature, i also keep on looking for things on Ebay and pinoy exchange and Buy and sell, just looking, looking, looking, at things i can’t afford, and things i think i can afford and i think would like to have soon but i don’t really know if i ever will or if i really even want them in the first place. DId that make sense?)

7. Staring into space. Which can be an adjunct to #3, as the prelude or the aftermath. Staring into space and just thinking about nothing, or about my heart (buti sana kung in the anatomical/physiological/pathological sense, but no…), or about the void that is my life — ahehehe drama, or about the SONA, or about making money (coz i need some as have been off allowance since i decided to stay home and not to go elsewhere to study, and i need to finance #6), or about kung may typhoon suspension ba and kung may klase ba ang mga kapatid ko bukas, and if not, what can i cook kaya for them… things like that.

8. Cooking and insisting on being another Sous Chef of the one and only Iron Chef in our house, Manang Zen.

9. Fixing my room. Sabi na ADHD talaga ako, i have to exert extra effort in fixing my room maya’t maya and rearranging things maya’t maya. Can’t help myself. (does that make my neurotic too? nge)

10. MY HOUSE. Actually encompasses all numbers. PLus the major home improvement projects we’ve been instituting lately has been distracting me, as my house naman is a really old thing na (24 years almost ka-age ko. Nge), and is a work in progress. But I like staying at home, I like cooking. Walang gastos dito, I have everything I need (almost!), and i don’t get rattled or freaked out or pressured much when i don’t see the intensity of how other people are reviewing as opposed to me. Kinakabahan ako eh. Hihihi!

May this serve as a moral/guide for future board reviewers, these are things to avoid (for me too, should I have to take it again). DO live under a rock, why don’t you (as long as you think you can study there). Anyway I realized I have to have this blog posted before D-Day, lest I don’t make it, at least I’ll know why, and my split personality can say, "I told you so, Lau." However, as it may seem desperate about trying to doff the blame on something else, after all’s been said and done, at least I’ll know everything would have been my doing. Like, distractions and temptations abound, always, and surround us all the time, but aren’t we the key players to our destiny, and couldn’t we decide to just say no? Exactly. Like now, tignan mo, crunch time na, and I just had this uncontrollable urge to blog. And i did not say no. I also kind of want to post about my little crushes of late, but at least my conscience mocks my frivolity. AT least that i can fight. Sige na, have to sharpen those cramming skills once more.

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Erratum: Now on video is BLue Moon… ang movie ng mga Regal-babies ni Joel Lamangan sa UERM… kaya lang i can’t seem to fix the previous blog, talagang tumatalon ahead yung "May God bless us all" na line, even if I already re-wrote the whole bloody thing. Kaya here’s the whole thing once again: Now on video: Blue Moon, directed by Joel Lamangan, starring many, many magagaling na actors and actresses, but more importantly, ME, and my friends Dennis Fernandez, Dra. Julie Pua-Ferraz, Marris Tec-de Jesus and Andrei Cifra star in cameos. No kidding! Serioso!We earned 200 bucks each for our very short time. Blink and you’ll miss us. Oh well. Regal babies na kame!!! (Again I’d like to mention my friend Chona, ate Charo, for getting us this gig! Kami sana ni Oliver, but then again, it turned out fine otherwise… thanks Cha!) … btw I haven’t seen it myself, Eunice. Na-edit out ba kame? I wonder.

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Crunch time na… turn ko na’ng mang-asar ngayon with all those pesky chain letters. Hate that! I Hate na hate ko yung especially those with historical value (such as "This has started in the late 1800s in Uganda, passed down from generation to generation and has never been broken since…" ), veiled threats ("DO NOT IGNORE!"), so-blatant-I-won’t-even-bother-with-the-veiling threats ("if you don’t pass this on something bad will happen to you and your family"), assumptions about my faith ("if you believe in God, send this to 4 thousand people") and time limits ("…within 1 hour"). Kaya humanda ang mga nagkalat nyan saken magpapaulan ako ngayon wahahaha.

Too de loo. God bless us all.

08/01/2006 2:14 PM ayan short and sweet lang sha just like me

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08/09/07 Another thing about chain texts which get my goat. Since when did it require you to be a Globe/Smart/Sun/Talk and Text/Touch Mobile subscriber with unlimited text potential to be worthy of God’s love??? Ha? Pa-explain? Does this mean that if you do not pass these wretched things on, He will do something to harm your family kasi hindi mo pinayaman ang mga pinuno ng monopolya ng telekomunikasyon? I thought so. Alam ko pa nga bawal yan eh, it’s in Deuteronomy or somewhere, about false faith. I think I believe in unconditional grace and love, and I know He loves me kasi He has proven it to me so many times, in ways even the people who know me best don’t know or realize. Jesus has kept me whole. And I believe in the Bible, if nothing else. And at the risk of sounding needlessly preachy, you know dati I attempted to read my Bible from cover to cover (some of my bestfriends already have, ako yung Gospels lang yung mejo nabasa ko ng kompleto, and of course, from Genesis to Deuteronomy) –and I mean the real thing ha, not the Children’s Illustrated Bible, kasi yun natapos ko — PERO at least umabot ako ng Deuteronomy (actually ang naaalala ko lang na umabot ako dun sa chapter after Numbers – kasi I waded through Numbers painstakingly, and by the time I reached the next chapter mejo nagwane na ang pasensha ko – so I just grabbed my Bible just now to check kung ano yung chapter after Numbers, hehe), and I’m pretty sure bawal yang ganyan ganyan. Pero heck, since naka-unlimited text ako ngayon, pi-nass on ko na rin. Sabi nga ng friend kong si Wena, it wouldn’t be so bad if more people prayed for you diba?

Anyway, gusto ko lang idagdag dito the best chain text I’ve received in years, yung super funny Goldilocks chain letter, lest I get depressed in a week’s time and I look back on the blog, at least I’ll have something to laugh about… I thank my beloved Joel for this chain text. It goes:

"Happy 40 thoughtful years Goldilocks!" Send this to 40 of your friends within 2 days, or else magiging cake ka. Totoo to! Yung friend ko naging cake na, mocha siya.

SO I passed it on to 40 people that same night, kaya heto, hindi pa ren ako nagiging cake. Hahahaha. Although sabi ng favorite mare kong si RR, "ok lang kung maging cake, at least yummy ka." We don’t have to be cakes, mare, yummy na tayo eh!

Too de loo part two

PS. Hello to one of my best friends in high school, si Trina… thanks for making paramdam, and yeah pareho nga tayong junkies!!! Wow, i wonder if i can get Kara Saun to do my wedding dress (if and when)… I’m still using my forever Globe number. text text! And my Bear sister Eunice, hugs and kisses!