L.A.U. (late as usual…)’s Late entry (in the order sheet sense)
Kanta muna: His after moan though cries oh no He’s building up a shine but he take it slow And he knows it time to make a change here And time to get away And he knows it’s time for all the wrong reasons And time to end the pain But he sleep all, sleep all day, sleep all, we sleep all day over again Why don’t we? She said what would your mother think and how would your father react oh lord Would he take it all back what they’ve done No way he said take it, take it and don’t break it with your own two hands That was my old man and he said if all is grounded you should go make a mountain out of it oh what a lovely day to have a slice of humble pie recalling of the while we used to drive and drive here and there going nowhere but for us, nowhere but for the two of us and we knew it was time to take a chance here and time to compromise our lives for awhile and it was time for all the wrong reasons but time is often on my side and I give it to you tonight and we sleep all, sleep all day, sleep all, we sleep all day over again …. etc.
This is a late entry as I typed this days back, ngayon ko lang ipopost…The song Sleep All Day kinda described what I’ve felt those days (siempre yung Sleep All Day part lang, no idea what Jason mraz meant by those other things he wrote)
I’m facing again another sort of precipice, and about to say goodbye to this beautiful lifestyle (of summer) that I have effortlessly adapted to. Internship is about to begin. Huhuhu. What I’m gonna miss the most, of course apart from the daily bonding and asaran with my four lovable siblings, eh yung sleeping all day. Darn darn darn!!!! My god, what I’d give to be able to sleep at least 10 hours per day. I need it naman kasi.
Let me ask you, have you ever felt, like, you were always tired? Always, always, always tired? Something like a chronic fatigue syndrome? I have that. I don’t know. I don’t think I’m depressed or anything, anyway, but I just love sleeping. I crave it.
Which is not a very good thing to have if you’re in the profession I’m in… 36 hour duties, c’mon! is that even medically, biologically sound??? Hehe. Guess I should be in the position to answer that having those two degrees to my name. And the answer is, no. and no. and though this may not be backed by journals, basing it on experience seems to be all the empiric data I need.
Ten things:
1. after one million years, nag-e-email na ako ulit… problema kasi, simula na’ng lumaki na ang inbox capacity ng yahoo di na ako nag-eemail, thinking di naman mapupuno. haha. now ive shaved off almost half of the emails na umipon sa inbox. kalahati na lang to go (and nag-unsubscribe na ako sa lagay na yan from the nonsense — nonsense daw o! — fangroups i used to belong to. Btw, ABSCBN’s re-showing Meteor Garden. Grabe no, so long ago! Hi she, robby, kriz, and all my other Meteor Garden-midnight YM co-fanatics na co-SIs na ngayon). And I’ve opened a professional sounding email with gmail. By professional, I mean, something you wouldn’t be embarrassed to email to medical institutions with. Hehe.
2. today is may 4, officially the first day of my senior internship… and no, i was not playing hooky the whole time! electives kase ang 1st rotation ko, and the great doctor salazar kept telling us since may 1 to just wait for official announcements as to what our electives will be. Tumatambay lang kame sa chief of clinics waiting for official announcements. Sunday came, and I enjoyed it the way any other sensible SI-to-be-faced-with-the-prospect-of-SI-ship-yet-given-a-reprieve would — by sleeping.
3. monday, I went to school for the orientation, and we attempted to thresh out all the elective problems. see here, our entire mini-group wanted to take neuro, and that would be mighty weird na lang since how do you fit in all 5 SIs right, wala na matitira sa other electives. but my main prob is this, i wanted to take psych and anes also. and then, i would also like sana to take radio, then rehab… patho’s the last, pero it would have been cool too, if only we could take them all! so anyway. I told myself, if worse comes to worst, i’ll get psych and anes na lang. yup, since im the giving type and everything, i would give up neuro to accommodate those who really really want and need it, and are dead set talaga on becoming neurologists, namely, helen and oli… i guess i would have to get my neuro kicks some other way. for example, two of my bestfriends balak maging neurologist, why not? ;p hi au and aggie! paturo na lang. and helen and oli nga, my good friends who i really respect, among others, so, maraming paraan if you really want something.J Anyway, we weren’t even able to go remotely near the topic of electives that day, so Monday was again a big joke to us. Another reprieve! This time I didn’t sleep all day (only from about 9pm to 6am… not bad huh? Kung ganito lang sana lage ang buhay SI, we’ll have very pleasant doctors). Dr. Sheryl Fandiño (nanaman) and I then decided to visit our friends at Lourdes Hospital. Ang tahi-tahimik duon! Wakomasay. Ang ingay ni Jay for that place (love you jay). Then we had lunch, and shopped around with Dr. Erna Basuel, Dr. Oli Domingo and Dr. Ian Fernando, just parading our spanking new SI clothes at SM. What was so funny was that we never took off our coats, hehehe, kahit ang init2. Rampa!
4. Tuesday, anyway, a lot of our questions got answered. Neuro and Psych became required rotations na, of one week each (yahoo!); however, for the remaining 2 weeks, we choose an elective among these: radio, anes, patho, neurosurgery. And tadadada… in less than 10 seconds, ol’ indecisive me decided: I chose anes. After our madugong orientation with Sir, I went to the anes department to inform our way cool chief res that I will be undergoing the program for the next two weeks, and that I start may 4. kaya lang mashado akong excited so I dropped by at the OR just to observe the outgoing super SI, dr. butch beringuela at work. Just so I’d know what the job would entail. So far, it seemed like I have made the right decision. For me naman kasi, anes is the way to go, because: 1) gusto ko talaga, 2) the residents are cool beans people, 3) we never had any anes exposure for JI, so, smart move, 4) kahit may duty na every 3 days, as opposed to radio and patho na wala… wala lang, at least you don’t feel so slacky (is that even a word?), kasi you’re still working, 5) pharma is like my weakest suit sa basics (nakakahiya no. this is based on our compre), and this will help me a lot. anyhoo, psych and anes kasi happen to be my plans B and C, respectively, if my ambition to be a medicine resident someday does not pan out, say, if i’d suddenly decide to get married and opt for the family life na lang , or the lure of showbiz or journalism becomes too strong… hehe, kunyari lang din no, but anything can happen you know ;p… of course, if that would be the case, IM would be way too demanding of my time, ede psych na lang tayo… and then anes, my top three, if psych bores me or puts a lot of strain on my emotional well-being (kasi I am sooo an empath), if im not really cut out for it (to dispense advice and talk and talk and talk and get paid for it!!!! That’s, like, the life man! Kaya gusto ko ren ng psychJ). if both plans A and B fail. knowing me, in a few months these plans are going to change… there will probably be a plan D to Z.
5. haay. this is sooo my problem. must i forever blame my being a Libra for my indecision? it’s not as if i can’t decide talaga, but it’s just that a lot of things, a lot of things, greatly fascinate me. i don’t know what it is i want, like, for the rest of my life (except for certain things that i feel pretty strongly about, pero aken na lang yun)..
6. i am admittedly a very pikon and matampuhin person. goes with the fact that I am the emotional one, don’t you think? however i must say, i can be appeased easily. past is past, i say (and quite honestly. i mean this when i say this). the bad part is, though, i can dig, and dig deep. is that the same thing as keeping a grudge? i dunno. i mean, i forgive, then forget, yah, at least momentarily, but once there is provocation i can start picking at old wounds and remembering past hurts, yes digging deep into recesses of the forgotten. i actually forgot why i started writing this bit.
7. I haven’t been eating rice since the 2nd week of March. Hard to believe? Believe it. Amazingly, I haven’t broken it. And I’m not even looking for it now. And when I started, I didn’t drink softdrinks also… kaya lang ang hirap iwasan ng softdrinks, kasi ito yung lagging available na beverage, and the cheapest too. Ohwell. Inaasar na kasi ako ng kapatid ko na ang taba ko na. Which is true, indi pa nga lang halata masyado because I have a long thin face. Part of coping, of letting go? No. Gusto ko lang pumayat ulit. Ang papayat pa naman ng mga anes people (I’m sooo amazed how they keep their figures, wow). Goodbye rice. 8. “Hindi sha maarte, iba, iba sha…” Name the jolog movie from which this line was taken. Anywayzs, sabi ni Ian my good friend and certified jolog, this describes me din daw. Salamat pare. Hindi ako maarte ha! Selectively maarte lang. I’m very koboy din naman to some respect, and a trooper. Sige lang ng sige, sugod lang ng sugod. Kaladkaren. Lakwatsera. Game. Taga-UP Dil kasi. Other people naman say I’m makikay. Oh well, a girl’s gotta be a girl, a princess has got to be a princess. Pana-panahon lang yan. Kulang na lang prince. Ehek ano ba!
9. My Hollywood crush of the moment (actually matagal na, pero right now he’s tooooo cool): Ashton Kutcher. ANG cuuute mo!!! My Showbiz crush of the moment: Joross. La lang, di ko maexplain. Hero kasi is too, well, Meteor Garden-ish, and you know na maka-Jerry Yan ako and not Zaizai. J Currently addicted to: American Idol (go BO BICE!!! You’re the only left for me to root for! Haay, kelan ba mabooboot out si Fedorov??!!? Your guess is as good as mine), and reruns of Friends and the Simpsons.
10. Short term goals of the moment: buy a mini-sewing machine and get rid of our old colossal antiquated one at home. At saka learn how to drive. Re-enroll in swimming lessons para mas magaling na ko pag nagbeach ulit (Lexi if you come across this, tara enroll tayo together sa adult swimming classes! ). And re-learn to play the guitar well (impluwensya sa ken ni Drs. Abando/Babaran/Subroto)
What I have been doing:
1. Saturday: went to several boutiques looking for a princess outfit, my dream grad dress… as per genevieve’s suggestion, corset gown. I found it, then bought it. Malamang. it’s an old rose number with this subtle sheen, and flowing skirt (i would have looked for a princess skirt kaya lang, haller!), by bobby novenario. Or mike dela rosa. Di ko matandaan. Hehe. ang ganda talaga. truth is, i already found another dress at sari-sari (likewise corset-style din), an off-white one naman, ganda2 ren. so im just gonna save up to buy that one. You know me, when I try something on, I start falling in love with it, so I get this compulsion na I have to have it. Kakaiba talaga ako. hence the shopping control problem. Anyway, im going to wear it with my beautiful princess hair pieces (hence my fascination with swarovski hairbands that cost 200pesos up!). Haynako, kulang na lang, prince. Here we go again…
2. Saturday pa ren: ate steak at TIB with carlo. Again, as per gen’s suggestion, which was jen liit’s suggestion din, kasi masarap talaga at mura lang ang steak duon. Dapat talaga 4 kame nun, with d and leo, kaso ayun, sabotahe, nag-date tuloy ulet kame ni carlo :). No offense meant dude, you’re one of my favorite people to have dinner with, kaya lang you know very well that it should’ve been someone else. 
Mag-propose ka na kasi kay *B* para di mo na ako dine-date. Hehehe. FYI: steak is one of my favorite foods, followed by pizza, pasta, potatoes, ice cream, chicken. Yum yum.
3. Sunday: went swimming. Party for my 10 year old cousin. Nag-night swimming kame, and I felt so bad coz I had very little for lunch, ang sarap pa naman ng ulam namin, putanesca.
4. Monday: claimed my toga and tickets for graduation. Then I went shopping, again, by myself. Huhuhu. Lungkot ng buhay ko noh, shopping alone forever. Anyway, so I bought myself a book by one of my favorite authors to cheer myself up. Money can always cheer people up.
5. Attended lunch, hosted for us by our adviser nung 1st year med, Dra. Bareng. I love you Mommy B. However, only Jenny toxic and Irene and myself showed up. Nakakahiya kay Mommy B. Anyway, bonding galore naman with Irene, which is always a nice and pleasant thing to do. Si Sheryl ininjan kame. That same day, we attended the testimonial dinner sa college audi, hosted for the grads by thealumni association. Not a lot of people went (Si Sheryl ininjan kame… wait I said that already), but a lot of people I cared about went. That’s what’s important.:)
6. I found the shoes to match my dress!!! Interesting story here. I was supposed to watch a gig of mymp later in the evening, kaya lang nakakadepress kasi mag-isa nanaman ako. eh, the search for my shoes went on for forever, kaya when I got to the place, no more MYMP. I just bought the new 2-CD set. 400 pesos. Sapatos? 800, pang princesa. Good work.
7. Nag-graduate. Yahoo. April 28, 2005, PICC. Wala lang. To see my batchmates all dolled up and pretty and debonair in one place. Cool beans yung commencement speaker namin. And it didn’t seem that long, as we kept ourselves busy taking digipics. Hey guys! Digipics naman o pleeasse!!!J I then had a little dinner at Seafood Wharf along Roxas Boulevard, with my family, and some of my father’s friends, Dr. Varilla, Dr. Yanez, Dr. Borromeo.
8. Nagpakain ng mga gangmates, nagchikahan sa Napoli’s, at sa Starbucks ABSCBN (at sidestory nakita si chocolate, assunta at theo. Nyek!). The invitation was really sobrang madalian, as I didn’t even know I was going to be free on the 29th, until the 28th. In fact, I already planned to go to my friend Leya’s grad party at her place, had it not been for my gangmates. I miss them naman kase, Flummoxed and The Beautiful Onesz. Imagine that, to have had a whole month of freedom, and I didn’t even get to see them. Well, some of them lang pala, the others came.
9. wala lang, spent the time remaining shopping in the morning for our business, and for my shallow, temporary happiness as well… then sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. Hey! NO wonder tumataba ako mashado!
10. Naging SI, officially (with all the other details associated with SI-dom? Hindeh! I vow to be different!), at naging the first Anes SI for SIY 2005-06. And the rest is history. Will make kwento some other time. Anes people are the coolest yet.
Greetings:
so well, kamusta na ang lahat??? mishu ah! btw, congratulations sa lahat ng mga bagong na-conferan ng title ng doctor of medicine ni dr divinagracia (yahu!), at sa iba pang mga bagong doctor na mga kaibigan ko. sana magkita-kita tayong muli balang araw. kakamiss.
speaking of confer, i confer the 2005 most pasaway updilbio2001 member award to my mamirica. sorry i decided to stick it out at ue at di na ako naki-nkti with u (P2.5 K na ren kame, sabi ni yay… tas longsleeved pa blazer namen, haha! kakaiba mga priorities eh no). i don’t know if im staying at uerm for the right reasons, or the wrong reasons (and may i add, the 2.5K and the long sleeved blazer are not naman THE reasons noh, bonus lang yun!:)). maybe it’s enough na that im surrounding myself with the familiar, with people who matter to me, with family (hi papa! hi brother! and more often than not, hello relatives-who-are-now-patients! nepotism runs highly in our community) during a potentially challenging time. and i know in my heart that those in the best position to educate me and turn me into the best i can be are my uerm superiors. (wow. loyalty. "all that i am and all i have i owe to God and thee." thank you). this is only speaking for myself, ewan ko na lang about the others.
Hello vice! Thanks for attempting to “make dalaw” (luv this term) me kahapon… kaso busy talaga ako sa panggugulo at pangungulit sa OR kahapon, so… anyway, duty ako ng Day 1… kaya duty ako may 4, 7, etc. at pag from, siemps di ka naman uuwi agad till natapos na mga procedures. Ika nga, sa anes, you come in early and you leave late. Hopefully you learn a lot, which I intend to do. Kaya ayun. Come and make dalaw me some other time. I’ll text u naman e, I still haven’t got the CDs I promised you. Hintay mo lang. Lab u brother, nakakamiss ang may matangkad na sandalan at panangga sa araw, hehe! Miss you.
To my Bes, na laging nagtetext, halatang miss kame… luv u Joel! Tell me lang when you wanna make dalaw. I’ll be at the OR lang until May 17. Then, Psych na ako.
Hello Carlo and Dawn who discovered my blog na after several days. Hiyee Leo, I’d love to go hiking with you, kaso I chose Anes as my elective e, kaya busy pa ren ako. sorry. Raincheck? I swear not to be too high maintenance. I shall conquer Maculot too! Hi Phoebe hon, e-email kita personal, have favor to ask. Hi Lexi ann have u gotten your book na? I hope so, I miss you pramis. Auieau my soulsister, lapit nyo na me maging SI. Don’t toxic me ha?!:) and to all my other gangmates and the in-laws, I miss you all.
Ang haba tuloy. Blog equivalent of several weeks. I read through it, and it’s not even half as funny as my first one. Hoh well. Anyway, a new blog to be posted shortly after this. A lot like love, coming soon.
