Belated blog
The last blog was written two weeks ago. Ngayon ko lang naipost. I have already rotated in Psych. mucho fun kase friendships ko sobra ang aking mga JIs… and the residents are really nice – very feminine, non-harassed, grounded people – and my co-SIs are fun to hang out with, really pasaway. Plus I love the subject matter… I’ve always been fascinated by Psychiatry naman di ba? And I adore Dr. Los Banos, our cool (kahet scary to some) junior consultant. Our tambayan right now is the Psych lungga, pano kase Neuro locks us out a lot. Haaay… and with Neuro, you know naman my group have always been Neuro babies, Neuro having been our first clinical rotation ever… tas I adore pa Dr. Ambasing, who is my “Manong”, (sign of respect yan sa Ilocano) my ka-duty lage. We’ve got the power! (we’re very benign pag kame ang duty… sorry Jan)
Anyway, I just got home from the worst 36 hours of my life, the worst duty I ever had. Bwiset. Feeling ko tuloy napaka-walang kwenta kong SI. Lagi na lang something seems to go wrong, tapos nagkaroon pa ako ng super annoying na overbearing na primadonna-ish diva for a patient (actually mom ng patient), and I sooo do not like the feeling. I am used to being liked; my patients more often than not, adore me (I should stop using this word today). Grabe na ito. People have been telling me not to get disheartened, that things will get better in time. Haay. Pero lam mo naman ako, I take everything personally kase. Ang sama-sama ng loob ko. Grabe. I told Dr. LB, “sir, buhuhu, I have MDD!”. Ang sabi ni Sir, “Gaga, ano nanamang drama yan!?! You do not even satisfy criteria b!” (see why I adore him?J) tas siempre my emotions have always been turbulent pag dating sa personal life ko, ever since… Anyway, im feeling much better now kasi im off on a Sunday. Yippee (I just came home from UE though because my little brother got sick and we had to bring him to the lab to get his CBC. Di naman namin inadmit, though, bumili nalang kame ng antibiotics).
Wala naman na akong ibang gustong sabihin sa ngayon. Ten things na lang ulit.
Ten things:
1. I haven’t seen the latest Star Wars flick. And I don’t care. Mas concerned pa nga ako na mapanood yung A Lot Like Love eh. Wala na kasi akong mayaya. Has everybody seen it? Tough luck. Bukas pa naman ay duty ako.
2. i like writing. but i said that already, I think. There are a lot of things I want to say, naisip ko lang, are there enough people interested in what I want to say? Ayun, that is the question. Anyway, when im done with this med thing bit (forgive me, I have MDD right now, and thus am kind of disillusioned… when will Lau ever get her groove back?), I intend to capitalize on my writing and performing talents. Di ko pa nga lang alam how. By the way, it may not be evident from this blog, but I really can write in perfect, grammatically impeccable English, promise!… I just thought it would be more fun this way, to have a blog that is more conversational than stiff (hence the use of the vernacular more than usual). Diba? Diba?
3. I like reading, but only if I really really have the time. Reading kasi is a commitment for me, I cannot read a book then just put it down ganun na lang when something else comes up. Kaya hirap ako maghanap ng time mag-aral, siguro (plus I have ADHD, I think). Anyway, i always judge books by their covers (i mean this in the literal way; i’m way too nice to even consider being like that in the figurative sense). Besides the fact that I’m a very tactile person, a book’s texture means a lot to me, so the visuals are but a pale second, when it comes to my bookcover-judging. I don’t mind having old, dog-eared ones. especially if they are given as gifts, and if they’re cheap, and if they’re by my favorite authors/writers. I like hard bound novels, ganda kase ng feel when you’re clutching them, reading every page (I enjoyed reading the Harry Potters when I had hard bound copies already). The other day, there was this show on Jam 88.3 (which we listen to pag umuuwi kame from the hospital), tapos may contest na, text in your 3 most favorite books, and why…then I realized that I couldn’t, for the life of me, choose just three. Ang hirap eh. Top three favorite authors nga ang hirap din. So ayun. Perhaps one day I shall do a “ten things” on books as well (pati kaya movies). Malaki ang influence ng barkada ko sa aking book selection. And also my friend/4 East buddy na si Leya, okay din ang kanyang taste in books (and she used to lend me lots… hi leya, hows makati med? We miss u!)
4. Let’s talk about the music I love. OOOOOHH… THERE ARE LOTS! I’m primarily a Pop Princess!Ü I also like 80s songs (corny hair, corny outfits, corny beats aside, they’re really fun and easy to listen to. Transports me back to my childhood. These were the songs I grew up with. And had you been reading into my personality, I’m the type who simply adores nostalgia), New Wave music. Also, alternative music was a great part of my life, of my teenage life, in particular. It was such a rage. I was in the teens when bands like Nirvana hit it big, and everything, and back here where I exist, a lot of local talent emerged back then. So I have a fondness for that particular era when alternative music seemed not to be so alternative after all. In fact, back then, I was part of a band, their vocalist. Mas mahaba pa ang kwento why we started that band, but that would be for a later blog. Haaay, those were the days (I’d still love to sing for a band now. Nobody’s signing me up though. The alternative music trend has ceased).
5. I also like sentimental, romantic, middle-of-the-road songs. Sometimes, people are amazed by how much I know about songs that became hits when I wasn’t even born yet. But I don’t know. Music speaks to me, I guess. Saka ko na lang I-enumerate mga faves ko, sobra kasing dami.
6. One reason I get to open my laptop weekly is because I have to burn away lots of music otherwise mag-k-crash na ang system ko. I keep on ripping CDs and downloading stuff. Our old SI Mark Figueroa called me, and a bunch of other friends The Songnappers. Thanks to my handy dandy flash drive. (I think I have mentioned in a previous blog that im a fan of piracy – infernes hindi ko pa naman bini-business ang music ripping ko, for my own personal happiness lang to). umipon na ng umipon ang stuff dito. Do you know that ive deleted all my computer games para lang sa music (tsaka di ren ako mashadong mahilig sa games; the only game ive really really played was Insaniquarium)? So anyway, ayun, I have to burn my MP3s into CDs. Good gift idea for Lauie: a huge bunch of blank CDs.J
7. Happy songs. Right now I really really love Smash Mouth’s Can’t Get Enough Of You Baby. It’s my happy song of the moment.J What is a happy song? A happy song is a song na pag naririnig ko, no matter what mood I am in, I automatically smile and get recharged. You know. So right now, it’s that Smash Mouth ditty. Other happy songs I’ve had in the past were My Girl (yah yung theme ng Macaulay Culkin starrer, that movie always always makes me cry), Happy (Shalala), and My Sharona (which was the No.1 song on the Billboard chart on the day I was born. Trivia trivia).
8. Trivia princess din pala ako. Won contests for that na (part of the reason is magaling din ako mag-strategize at pumili ng teammates, kaya we win). I dunno why I can easily store a lot of useless information in this damn coconut of mine, tapos yung mga dapat tandaan kinakalimutan ko.
9. Ayy, meron akong bagong crush na sobra sobra sobrang hindi pwede!!!! As in hindi talaga pwede, it’s all wrong. Wala lang. Bakit ko naging crush ito? Kase may na-fulfill shang isang crucial criterion sa aking mahabang list of criteria para kay The One. Sobra nya itong na-fulfill, sumobra pa. Ano ito? Wag na lang. Basta! Kakahiya. (Codename: Little crush 1) Sabi nga ni Jennifer Paige, it’s just a little crush, not like I faint everytime we touch. At least nagkaka-diversion na ako kahit papano. May isa pa akong bagong crush (Codename: Little crush 2), who reminds me of Little crush 1. Pero it’s an even littler crush. Feeling ko pag gising ko bukas iba na ang isip ko. Tsaka kung sabagay, isa lang naman talaga ang nasa puso ko kase sa ngayon eh. Yun pa ren. Bwiset talaga (Lauie let’s go let’s go! You mean nothing to him, stop punishing yourself, stop allowing him to consume your thoughts. You love yourself more so start the healing).
10. I love him too much it hurts.
Yun lang. Right. I wanna go bye bye now. Sleepyhead. Wan an. (hi Genevieve, I really miss u!) Saka na ren yung ibang greetings and everything, mahaba na to. Hi na lang to myneuroscience fellows she oli helen and jan.J Ay lab u ol en gud nayt tu yu.
